Monday.

       The original plan was to visit Uncle 7 in Bien Hoa and to retrieve a watch my mother sent me. The latter was the main focus. However, I couldn't wake up in the morning. The previous days events wore me down to the bone and I woke up around 9 AM or so and put some bread into my body and went back to sleep again. I woke up at around 6 PM and Nhat was over. Btw, for those of you who don't know, Nhat is from Canada and he's been visiting for the past month. His departure is looming near so John and I both want to make sure he does something aside from nothing. I love that feeling of waking up starved and then eating something hardy. Most of the time I wake up starved with nothing to eat.
      Without anticipation or prerequisites we headed towards District 1 to eat at Skewers, which is a fancy place that serves fantastic western and Mediterranean dishes. The ambiance was date worthy, unfortunately I was with two other dudes. I chowed down on clam chowder. Great times all around, especially when you can speak the same language with the people around you and where you can be yourself without worrying about insulting the cultures around you.
      As we headed out we wanted to get some smoothies to wash down the heavy grub, but suddenly someone tugged at my heart. I had a sudden ache and I asked John to pull over at the next possible place for me to get food because I felt a strong desire to get W4 some food. She was nearby and I couldn't linger on when I was full and she was likely hungry. I called her up and told her to meet me outside down the street and she did. She was dressed very casually and with glasses that I've never seen before. I handed over some common park food like banh trang chong, banh trang nuong, bap xao, and some other grilled goods. I made sure no peanuts were added because she hates that. She also refuses to eat anything that's stuffed or has fillings. yeah...

       So we stood there on the deserted sidewalk for a little bit as I tried my best to feel something. I saw here merely 24 hours earlier, but I had a sudden longing. When I saw her the longing kind of died down and I was left feeling empty all over again despite feeling full. I had no expectations. I'm a nice guy and I rather just be friends now. A relationship will complicate my life past points that I'm not ready for them to go. I'm content with just being her go to guy because I don't feel the spark as consistently as before. I just have doubts and the lack of certainty from my gut tells me to not get too attached because I already foresee the future. I'm fine with how things are. Then I got back into the car as she did her best to double wave me off into the darkness. I sat back and closed my eyes because Tuesday will definitely be more eventful.


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